Weight...probably the same.
Somedays I feel very much like Bridget Jones.
A little overweight and highly scatterbrained.
I like to think it's because creative people often
lack skills in other uminportant areas such as common
sense and organizational skills. Although I am
not single I am also not married and my boyfriend
although wonderful does not see this step forward as at
all important. This lack of wanting the same thing
I do gives me a self confidence issue. Is this why
I over eat? Did I just stop trying? Did I have a case of
fight or flight and I flew? What are your thoughts?
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Day 10: Smoking and Drinking
Okay so this entry may not be weight loss related but since I have a glass of very good wine in front of my I thought I would talk about drinking and smoking.
It's not like I wake up and think that a cigg or two sound good. Actually quite the opposite. The thought of smoking a cig in general grosses me out. It smells, it's unattractive...blah blah. It's not until I have at least three drinks that I crave one, I want one, and I will kill close family members to get one.
I'm not just the 'I will get drunk and smoke a cig type'. I am the 'I'm going to have a few drinks and light one with the other until I am grossed out by myself'. I mean I can go weeks and weeks without one. However, when I try to explain that to someone who doesn't understand they argue with me and label me a smoker. So what makes a smoker? Am I the disgusting person that I label and judge on a daily basis?
Weigh in on this ladies. Let me hear what you think.
It's not like I wake up and think that a cigg or two sound good. Actually quite the opposite. The thought of smoking a cig in general grosses me out. It smells, it's unattractive...blah blah. It's not until I have at least three drinks that I crave one, I want one, and I will kill close family members to get one.
I'm not just the 'I will get drunk and smoke a cig type'. I am the 'I'm going to have a few drinks and light one with the other until I am grossed out by myself'. I mean I can go weeks and weeks without one. However, when I try to explain that to someone who doesn't understand they argue with me and label me a smoker. So what makes a smoker? Am I the disgusting person that I label and judge on a daily basis?
Weigh in on this ladies. Let me hear what you think.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Day 9: Cramps and Food
I have massive cramps today. This could also be why when I found out that a family friend who I have known since he was four, got engaged last night, I bursted into tears. Maybe I just didn't expect a kid who is 6 years younger than me to be taking that step before me. I am starting to feel like an old maid. So I'm bummed today. I'm not going to apologize for the way I feel because I cannot help it.
I had half a brownie carmel thing last night. More soup for dinner. Didn't run at all. I want to work on my novel but I'm seriously starting to abhore it.
Love,
Debbie Downer
I had half a brownie carmel thing last night. More soup for dinner. Didn't run at all. I want to work on my novel but I'm seriously starting to abhore it.
Love,
Debbie Downer
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Day 8: Christmas Cookies Are The Devil
We did not receive just one gladeware container full of cookies from my boyfriends mother but FOUR! Then a co-worker of mine gave me an entire shirt box full of the assorted homemade cookies that she made over the weekend. Does everyone want me to fail? I fell off the wagon last night and after I had a bowl of low-fat no cheese no bread onion soup...I had three sugar cookies...and a brownie. Today I am not chastising myself for it and will start anew. I didn't eat breakfast this morning because my stomach hurts from the treats and I feel a little nauseous. ugh.
Today after work I will be starting a new organization cleansing at home. My closet is a disaster. My home is always immaculate but my closet seems to be a dumping ground for everything I feel I will get to later. And since we are having people over on Christmas Eve and I don't want my home tour to turn into an episode of 'Horders', I will start the excavating of my closet.
Does anyone have any great slow cooker recipes? I haven't used mine in ages and I'm getting the itch. Post them on here and I will let you know if and when I make it and how it came out.
Pounds Lost: NOT GETTING ON THE SCALE UNTIL I FEEL LIKE I ACTUALLY DID A GOOD JOB.
Sooooo......am I skinny yet? lol
Today after work I will be starting a new organization cleansing at home. My closet is a disaster. My home is always immaculate but my closet seems to be a dumping ground for everything I feel I will get to later. And since we are having people over on Christmas Eve and I don't want my home tour to turn into an episode of 'Horders', I will start the excavating of my closet.
Does anyone have any great slow cooker recipes? I haven't used mine in ages and I'm getting the itch. Post them on here and I will let you know if and when I make it and how it came out.
Pounds Lost: NOT GETTING ON THE SCALE UNTIL I FEEL LIKE I ACTUALLY DID A GOOD JOB.
Sooooo......am I skinny yet? lol
Monday, December 14, 2009
Day 7: Stupid Fun Weekend
So on Friday night my boyfriend and I attended a birthday celebration and as far as eating goes, I didn't do bad at all. As far as drinking goes...let's just say it was a long night.
On Saturday we took our dog Tank out on our boat for the first time. We bought him a life jacket. He loved it sooo much.
On Sunday we invited friends of our out on the boat and once again I was drinking...Beer! ALL DAY!!! Bad me! I really need to get a grip on things if I am going to make my deadline of March 14th. I feel like I spend all week trying to offset the weekends mistakes.
On a good note I am almost done with my Christmas shopping. I did all of it online so far. Got to love amazon.com!
My co-worker Karla brought me in an entire shirt box full of home made baked goods today. I will take them home and distribute them to my neighbors while passing them off as my own, I will do the same thing with the HUGE glad ware container my boyfriends mother brought over last night with oatmeal cookies and fudge!
I am kicking my workouts into high gear tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes!!!
On Saturday we took our dog Tank out on our boat for the first time. We bought him a life jacket. He loved it sooo much.
On Sunday we invited friends of our out on the boat and once again I was drinking...Beer! ALL DAY!!! Bad me! I really need to get a grip on things if I am going to make my deadline of March 14th. I feel like I spend all week trying to offset the weekends mistakes.
On a good note I am almost done with my Christmas shopping. I did all of it online so far. Got to love amazon.com!
My co-worker Karla brought me in an entire shirt box full of home made baked goods today. I will take them home and distribute them to my neighbors while passing them off as my own, I will do the same thing with the HUGE glad ware container my boyfriends mother brought over last night with oatmeal cookies and fudge!
I am kicking my workouts into high gear tomorrow. I will let you know how it goes!!!
Friday, December 11, 2009
Day Four: The Melting Pot
Current Weight Loss...1 lb
I have a birthday dinner to attend tonight for one of my friends at The Melting Pot. If any of you do not know that that is, it's basically a fondue restaurant. The first course involves a cheese fondue, the second a oil or broth based fondue and the third is chocolate...sweet delicious chocolate.
Now going out to dinner when you are trying to loose weight always carries several issues with it. Number one, I have to find something to wear that doesn't make me look fat or ...as fat as I am. Number two, do I partake in the food and call it my 'cheat' day? or do I eat something healthy before I get there? Number three, there is no such thing as going out with my friends and 'not drinking'. We don't know how to be social without cocktails. Who knows, maybe we will all sober up one day and find out that we really don't even like each other.
In trying to keep myself from feeling deprived so that I do not gorge myself on something that I know is not worth the calories my plan is tri-fold.
#1 No Beer, vodka soda with lime will do just fine.
#2 I will have the cheese but with the vegetables instead of the bread and I will limit myself two just a few small pieces of the desert.
#3 I will wear spanx.
Does anyone have any other 'dining-out' ideas to add? I am open to anything and everything.
I have a birthday dinner to attend tonight for one of my friends at The Melting Pot. If any of you do not know that that is, it's basically a fondue restaurant. The first course involves a cheese fondue, the second a oil or broth based fondue and the third is chocolate...sweet delicious chocolate.
Now going out to dinner when you are trying to loose weight always carries several issues with it. Number one, I have to find something to wear that doesn't make me look fat or ...as fat as I am. Number two, do I partake in the food and call it my 'cheat' day? or do I eat something healthy before I get there? Number three, there is no such thing as going out with my friends and 'not drinking'. We don't know how to be social without cocktails. Who knows, maybe we will all sober up one day and find out that we really don't even like each other.
In trying to keep myself from feeling deprived so that I do not gorge myself on something that I know is not worth the calories my plan is tri-fold.
#1 No Beer, vodka soda with lime will do just fine.
#2 I will have the cheese but with the vegetables instead of the bread and I will limit myself two just a few small pieces of the desert.
#3 I will wear spanx.
Does anyone have any other 'dining-out' ideas to add? I am open to anything and everything.
Day Three: High School Run-Ins
Current Weight Loss-1 lb
I had a nightmare that I ran into people from high school and they didn't recognize me because my face had been so severely distorted from the additional fat I was storing in my cheeks and forehead. I think this dream stems from an underlying fear I have of running into people that I haven't seen in a while and knowing that their first reaction when they see me is "Geesh she's put on weight." I know that this is their reaction because that would be mine if I saw someone who had packed on the pounds. Also I would probably think something a long the lines of..."Wow she let herself go." It is partially this fear that is driving me to drop the pounds.
Yesterday I ate the same things that I did on day one. I went for a run with my dog but it was more like he just ran and pulled me with him. I may or may not have dislocated my shoulder...hyper dog. I know I could have done better with the run. I think I will run in the morning and the afternoons during the week and at least once a day on the weekends. My body needs a pick-me-up big time.
Did you know that if you are on weight-watchers, which I am not currently, that they count sex and masturbating as exercise points? I think that is total bullshit because if that were true then you and I would not be having this conversation right now and I would be tits on a stick. Just some 'food' for thought.
I had a nightmare that I ran into people from high school and they didn't recognize me because my face had been so severely distorted from the additional fat I was storing in my cheeks and forehead. I think this dream stems from an underlying fear I have of running into people that I haven't seen in a while and knowing that their first reaction when they see me is "Geesh she's put on weight." I know that this is their reaction because that would be mine if I saw someone who had packed on the pounds. Also I would probably think something a long the lines of..."Wow she let herself go." It is partially this fear that is driving me to drop the pounds.
Yesterday I ate the same things that I did on day one. I went for a run with my dog but it was more like he just ran and pulled me with him. I may or may not have dislocated my shoulder...hyper dog. I know I could have done better with the run. I think I will run in the morning and the afternoons during the week and at least once a day on the weekends. My body needs a pick-me-up big time.
Did you know that if you are on weight-watchers, which I am not currently, that they count sex and masturbating as exercise points? I think that is total bullshit because if that were true then you and I would not be having this conversation right now and I would be tits on a stick. Just some 'food' for thought.
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